Communication
How we choose to communicate, with pen,
computer, voice, thoughts, actions or otherwise has a very different
outcome on not only the message communicated but on ourselves. I love
to engage in audio recordings of my self thoughts at this point. I
get to say a lot and figure out just as much as I used to with
writing journals. The end process of having catalogued and understood
my thoughts is the same but the vehicle is different. There are so
many teachers who offer different practices and encouragements to
write, but it doesn't necessarily give any different outcome than
another method of understanding your own thoughts. I started this by
saying that the different methods of communication did something
different from one another and now I am not sure that is true.
Currently as I type, I am reminded of
automatic writing. I used to love doing that. I imagine that I could
do a similar thing with voice. I am curious if one could use
something like yoga or other movements as a method to complete the
same process of self- evaluation in the same way that journalling
allows. I think it must be an effective idea. I recall being in
Mexico when I was 16. We were there on a church trip and, as can be
expected, I wound up working in the kitchen on our day off. The woman
there was born and raised in Mexico and had no English. I had
shockingly poor Spanish but we were able to still share our hearts
and communicate. I can remember little of what we actually said or
even how many audible words were spoken but we connected through eye
contact, smiles and a total sharing of laughter and ourselves.
Perhaps that is all that journalling is, an attempt to share
yourself, with yourself.
I find that there is one core lesson on
which I focus for a period at a time. Over the last decade or so it
has been about knowing that one is worthy. Not for any action or
talent. Just that you are worthy. I could sing it and have pages and
pages of that phrase written in journals of mine. At this point, the
lesson seems to be remembering that god is in you. That you are god.
Whatever it means to you, spirit, source, a religious god, or
anything else, you are god already. It is inside you. I think that is
likely to be the focus of the lesson that I am on right now.
Remembering that, and getting to know that god inside me. That is
likely what friendship is too. Connecting with someone who you
recognize the god inside of and who can see yours. I love getting to
know people and to understand that beauty inside them.
My handwriting has changed over the
years as I have changed. Yesterday, for the first time in my life, I
was able to print a capital N neatly, and precisely. It was like
achieving a new level of success. I didn't know I was looking for it
but when I saw myself do that letter well, I was shocked and
delighted. That god inside me had been working on self growth and
development and had met checkpoints and details that I was not even
aware we were marching towards.
I am reminded of a quote from a friend years ago. I am sure it came from her religion but she said, “In the garden of thine heart, tend naught but the flower of love.” By doing that, by tending to love, and allowing it to be my focus, satellite benefits have grown around it too. My physical garden in my yard has a great many volunteer tomato plants, yet the marigolds that we tried to plant were not successful. I am glad to just keep working and know that whatever is made through this process at the end will be legible and useful.
I am reminded of a quote from a friend years ago. I am sure it came from her religion but she said, “In the garden of thine heart, tend naught but the flower of love.” By doing that, by tending to love, and allowing it to be my focus, satellite benefits have grown around it too. My physical garden in my yard has a great many volunteer tomato plants, yet the marigolds that we tried to plant were not successful. I am glad to just keep working and know that whatever is made through this process at the end will be legible and useful.
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